December 30, early

Sad songs are so much better than happy ones

"The drugs don't work, they just make you worse
and I know I'll see your face again"

"Will I always feel this way?
So empty, so estranged
-
I've looked my demons in the eye
laid bare my chest, said do your best, destroy me
I've been to hell and back so many times
I must admit, you kind of bore me"

"But if you loved me
why'd you leave me?
Take my body
take my body
All I want is,
and all I need is
to find somebody
I'll find somebody
like you"

"Leave me out with the waste, this is not what I do
it's the wrong kind of place to be thinking of you
it's the wrong time for somebody new
it's the wrong time, and I've got no excuse
is that alright with you?

give my gun away when it's loaded
is that alright yeah
if you don't shoot it, how am I supposed to hold it
is that alright yeah"

"Just a small bump unborn
four months, then torn from life
maybe you were needed up there,
but we're still unaware as to why"

"I've figured out that joy is not in your arms
I know I'll always ache with an empty heart
I think it's time to run cause I'm seeing stars
I'm seeing starts, watch me fall apart"

"Some things we don't talk about
Rather do without
just hold the smile

falling in and out of love
ashamed and proud of
together all the while"

"Oh lord, here comes that sun again
that means another day
without you my friend
And it hurts me
to look in the mirror at myself
And it hurts even more
to have to be with somebody else
it's so hard to do
and so easy to say
but sometimes
sometimes
you just have to walk away"

"It seems so out of context 

in this gaudy apartment complex

the stranger with the door key,

explaining 'I'm just visiting'

I am finally seeing

That I was the one worth leaving

Well I was the one worth leaving"